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thoughts, well accounts really:

Mo 25-02-2002

What a weekend, WOW !

For starters: Olympics are beyond us.

Must share pix with you of 2 of our gold winners. The one left here for obvious reasons, the other one not only because the guy won gold twice and silver once, but also because he looks like JEROEN, who you'll get to know below and I will no doubt meet and probably taste this month.

Had a lot of work last weekend so I decided not to attend any of the parties, not even the graduation party of Martijn, one of the guys who lives here at my place and who now can call himself a true architekt.
Instead I did do some chatting when I got home friday and saturday. What went on I repeat here by cutting and pasting quite a bit of ICQ. So much of the text in this episode was not written by me for a change: I did not get into any of the action described below myself, but my own experiences with this guy will follow no doubt.

12479etc: (1:49 AM) hi real tasty
12479etc: (1:49 AM) got my mail?
adje: (1:52 AM) which mail
JEROEN: (1:53 AM) I'm JEROEN...
just sent an e-mail...
adje: (1:53 AM) yeah, wel, how am I to guess who the fuck 12479etc. is . . .
ok, reading it now
JEROEN: (1:54 AM) LOL...okido
JEROEN: (1:57 AM) it was incredible, you know...
it was sooo cool
adje: (1:59 AM) hmmm, good story! WOW !!!!
thought for a minit that is was with someone I already knew
still not too sure about that
JEROEN: (2:00 AM) could VERY WELL BE!!!
that you already know my shitmaster
JEROEN: (2:01 AM) really nice man in any case...
and I felt so well at ease... really truly downright neat
adje: (2:01 AM) PLEASED to hear you enjoyed it and it did not turn you off. . .
so you're open for a follow up session . . .
adje: (2:03 AM) I indeed have a date for
a session with a few others and a videocam thrown in for extra fun
JEROEN: (2:04 AM)I certainly was not turned off!! Nooo!!
It was very nice, to really do it...
intenz too...
must be supercool to toilet for more than one master...
JEROEN: (2:05 AM) when is that date
and how does it go?
JEROEN: (2:07 AM)not too sure if I'm ready for an appearance in a scatmovie
but it does sound real horny...The idea of toilet-serving more men...sjuuuure, supercool
JEROEN: (2:08 AM) nice piercings by the way...cool man
JEROEN: (2:08 AM) very horny
adje: (2:08 AM) no date set yet
have to work almost nonstop until march 16th.
but he has a steady relationship with a shitslave, 22 years old 'too'
and another 18 year old shitfriend
they all very much want to have images of their actions
and who am I not to oblige . . . and participate
JEROEN: (2:09 AM) cool man!
adje: (2:09 AM) I already gathered as much, you'd have found a hefty adventure, since I did not find an e-mail-reaction on my return home last nite
JEROEN: (2:12 AM) yeah, me too, very happy that I went through with this...
but about that filming...
don't know how those other boys are
I'm not particularly beautiful or anything...
but I am just plainly very very dirty...
keep me updated on this, if you don't mind...
I find it sooo interesting
JEROEN: (2:13 AM) Maybe I could be presented to this master for an inspection, to see if it could click...
adje: (2:14 AM) there is a bit too much politics in my darkroomdiary of late, so for the time being I'm going to refocus on core adventure, so it's very likely that you find your story back on my log.html by tomorrow
JEROEN: (2:14 AM) NICE!! thanx
adje: (2:15 AM) If you want your name kept out just let me know
JEROEN: (2:15 AM) yes, please keep my name out for the moment
adje: (2:15 AM) ok. (thus name=changed)
adje: (2:16 AM) anyway, very nice to hear from you after this unnerving weekend (for the both of us). JEROEN: (2:19 AM) what shit did you get up to then? yes, nice to have met you, man... I'm very proud of your way of communicating so open.... it really makes me feel good!!!
adje: (2:22 AM) Yes, worked mainly and a bit of drywanking on the net, but I have chewed down quite a bit of shit up to now ;) and tomorrow is laundryday again
JEROEN: (2:25 AM) Nice!! You're very welcome to publish my story on your page if you want... sounds like a good idea if it gets read... I'm positively amazed by the amount of men and guys who dare to delve into this without any shame! as a matter of fact we should be giving shit education..

inserted at this point is a synopsis of the e-mail we are talking about here:

Hi Adje...
Can't make it monday, but I do want to mail you a little something, BECAUSE I DID IT: last friday I managed to have my first scat-experience! I was bragging about this on homo.nl and thought... maybe you'd also like to hear this story...
so here goes...
Love,
JEROEN

> had my first experience last friday
> and it suited me like a glove
> it was at this man's house
> and we had set up a scat date
> but when I got there
> we first drank too much beer and smoked too many cigarettes
> and talked far too extensively
> until he said...I now know you too well and find you far too sweet and nice to shit in your mouth
> and so I was very dissapointed
> and tried to convince him
> that I really wanted it
> that did not go down too well....
> he looked very worried and said
> it's so much easier when I don't know anything about you
> now it is no longer possible to take advantage of you....
> normally I start with the sex straight after a guy's arrival
> and not after a long intence conversation
> I sat closer to him
> and he felt under my T-shirt
> that I then removed altogether straight away
> becoz I wanted to surrender myself to him
> the man was real sweet...he's 41
> after that I pulled off my pants...
> my underpants and socks
> and dropped myself backwards on the couch
> with my eyes closed
> he began to play a little bit round my asshole
> I'm just plain..ordinary blond, slim, dickie..sweet boy
> then he worked his finger into my hole
> and this did not surprise me much
> as I have gone this far before
> but when he took it out...
> ..he stuck his finger straight into my mouth
> ..and he had pulled out allsorts from my asshole
> and I was really enthousiastic again
> and felt so horny that he'd done that to me
> and he repeated this several times after which
> he proposed to go to the bedroom
> when I got there he sat on a chair...
> and I kneeled in front of him
> to lick him and suck his cock
> ater that I laid down on the bed...
> what seemed to surprise him
> but he just dropped down beside me
> and began to play with my asshole again...
> and I was merrily stroking his dick
> it was very exiting as it was only two days
> since I first contacted him through e-mail
> and I wanted a date straight away and he said....
> wow boy, that's a bit fast for me!!!
> I do need some time to prepare
> I hadn't held my expectations too high...
> as I'm not too fond of poking around in my asshole
> I quickly began to lick his ass....
> and as I was really setting my mind to concentrate on just that
> I already had his first turd in my mouth
> I was amazed and ALMOST CAME
> so I intensified my tonguework on his hole
>and he released his second helping
> it was treally very tasty...really really, honest
> good taste indeed
> after that he started
> to rub his ass over my face
> It was covered with his shit in notime
> I could not open my eyes anymore :((( ;)
> and almost had to puke a few times
> because of the overwhelming smell
> he then put his hole back on top op my mouth
> and I started rimming him again
> and felt there was still more in his ass
> and just as I I'd always been doing this as second nature...
> I began to suck his hole
> and sucked more soft shit straight into my mouth...
> weeoow, so cool, man, I was out of breath
> but even this I had to repeat...
> when I managed to get my hands free
> to stroke his ass...
> they too were covered with a shitlayer
> which I then smeared out across my chest and dick
> then I cuddled up sweetly in his arms...
> off the world completely...
> after a while he proposed to drink another beer...
> and I felt SOOOOOO at ease that I just followed him
> in the brightly lit big livingroom with all the curtains open
> still completely covered in shit
> even my hair completely stuck together
> I watched myself in the mirror...
> brown war colours and taste of shit in my mouth
> smoked a sigarette
> and he said 'so now you're REALLY a shitdog'
> and I said 'jeaaah...I told you so' :)
> then I went to shower and he went to sleep
> I threw up 3 times...
> from the stench but moostly from the booze....
> it all had become too much...
> I was still covered in the smell...
> but although I had to puke
> I felt soooo happy!!!
> I was singing when I showered
> which I never do in a strange house
> I went to sleep and the next morning
> there was still shit on the floor next to the bed
> and I was so disappointed that I
> had woken up all clean again
> That I picked up the turd on the floor
> and stuffed it in a cigarette box
> and took it home with me
> without telling him
> at home I took another shower
> and tasted his shit once again...
> cold and hard this time unfortunately...
> but I came fast and hard up against the tiles
> and I thought:
> 'ok this was once but never again'
> rinsed myself a final time
> and 5 minutes later I wanted it
> to happen all over again!!!!
> so now I know, I really am a shitdog, a shitdog, a true shitdog
> first I had thought this would not be right
> ....but it just is in my nature
> I am predestined to be shitted over by masters
> and misused as a toilet
> really feels good to be able to tell this to someone
> Only REALLY SHITTY IS
> that the smell stayes around in your nose for so long
> shit must have been all the way up my nose
> when I was on my way home in the tram
> a brown trail dripped from my nose to my lips
> I was sooo stressed...
> and afraid somebody saw
Groetjes adje!! veel goeds! xx

So far the mailed narration; back to the ICQ chat from here on:

JEROEN: (2:25 AM) I mean.. this is not something you hear in college corridors ;o)
adje: (2:26 AM) good to read about the puking hmmm great that you did not ommit that it really is part of it as is the story about the health risks like hepatitis and what you can do to prevent that
adje: (2:27 AM) you know Martin? famous scat cartoon artist from den Haag
JEROEN: (2:29 AM) Yes wondered about that...I did not get any shots...but you can take precautions, not? I did not remember I talked about vomiting in the mail...did I? And I wanted to ask you about the risk too...you read my mind
JEROEN: (2:29 AM) Martin, I don't know him, no
JEROEN: (2:30 AM) if at all possible I feel I'm very much ready for a serious scatsession now...
Maybe I Am made for it..!
adje: (2:32 AM) after what I read I'm pretty convinced you're made for just this and.. wat is "made for"? if you want it you want it . . . Martin's an old aquaintance of mine, original organisor of the Vagevuur scatparties. I'll send some of his drawings to your e-mailadres
JEROEN: (2:33 AM) ok Thanx! I dated once whit a friend of a Vagevuur organiser JEROEN: (2:34 AM) can I trust you with a picture of me?
JEROEN: (2:34 AM) I can, not???
adje: (2:35 AM) I consider myself trustworthy on that, yes
I'll send you one of mine in exchange but is is easier for me: don't have to trust anybody: I already made my choices a while ago
JEROEN: (2:35 AM) I shall first have to ask my shitmaster if I'm permitted to give out any info about him ... for now
JEROEN: (2:36 AM) It's just a passphoto, you know...so you know who you're chatting with
adje: (2:36 AM) I don't have to know anything personal about him
nor about you if that causes you problems
adje: (2:37 AM) but yes please, I'd love that; am preparing a mail with pix of me and Martin drawings
JEROEN: (2:40 AM) pasfoto = sent
adje: (2:44 AM) and received . . .hmm sweet swallow mondje (=mouth) my mailtje = on it's way too ever heard of Bastille?
JEROEN: (2:45 AM) bastille sounds familiair...never seen
adje: (2:46 AM) shall send you one of his masterpieces
his "nightwatch" of dirty orgysex
is huge file though: hangs on my wall as a print of 1 by 2 meter. Have compressed it to 110k
JEROEN: (2:46 AM) weeeuuuw!! good!
JEROEN: (2:52 AM) takes a while before it's in I see...:)
adje: (2:53 AM) just nowsending was still busy compressing
JEROEN: (2:53 AM) thanx, got it!!! let's see JEROEN: (2:54 AM) gaaf...beautifull, great technique heej adje: (2:56 AM) a lot of my digital artcollection is on www.delftboys.com that will keep you busy for a while
JEROEN: (2:57 AM) hmmm thank you for the pix...
JEROEN: (2:57 AM) shitpasfoto is you?
adje: (2:58 AM) ja shitpasfoto is ikke

adje: (2:59 AM) 23 maart I'll attend another Vagevuur scatparty if you think you're up to it I can checkout if there still is a bed to be reserved there
JEROEN: (2:59 AM) OK!!! stay in touch... you look really horny...like your piercings... don't mind being a slave for you I find this supercool... It must be soo good for me to really be deeply humiliated by some professional masters.
JEROEN: (3:01 AM) Yes, I would certainly like that... how does it go there... how is that with the sleeping places? are you going with others?
JEROEN: (3:02 AM) must be super horny these scatparties
adje: (3:03 AM) I can give you a ride, if you want we'll see about that reservation is the main concern. It is late, theyre bound to be sold out it's just bunk-beds: so don't worry, you do not have to sleep with me. will let you know about the reservation cancelling is always possible if you do it in time: they always have a long waitinglist (it is the cureous thing to do anyway)
adje: (3:04 AM) you could do it yourself too on www.vagevuur.nl but they may make extra allowances if I ask
JEROEN: (3:05 AM) nice man!! thanx...
yes is goed...I'll go with you...
thanx for your flexibility!!
I do have my moments when I do not see a future for me. and I absolutely do not want to pull you in THAT part of my shit... are those bunkbeds in the Vagevuur itself? must be so cool to be part of a scatparty there
adje: (3:07 AM) ja vagevuur has various bedrooms from doubles to a big room with 20 bunkbeds
hee
what fun and horny
to have this long chat this late
JEROEN: (3:08 AM) Oh don't mind being in a small room with you... wow man...you're too nice hey! I do want to experience this and will go with you adje: (3:09 AM) enne vagevuur policy = no sex in dorm or bedrooms that you do at the bar or the cellars JEROEN: (3:09 AM) ok!!!!! very good!!! adje: (3:10 AM) yeah, it's dirty enough as it is: bed and breakfastrooms must stay fresh
JEROEN: (3:11 AM)do you mind to take me? it looks like a mindshattering experience... and it must be better to go with someone who has done it all before...!
JEROEN: (3:12 AM) so if you like...double bedroom is good!!! you are making me very happy!!! so cool man
adje: (3:13 AM) no problem
hee
however,
horny as I am now
I need my slaaaaahhhp
tomorrow it's wasdag again
you're welcome there too
but do not hurry
another time is fine
JEROEN: (3:14 AM) is it expensive, vagevuur?
JEROEN: (3:15 AM) do they have a dresscode? yes not? been on their site once... you can indicate that you take or give, not?
JEROEN: (3:19 AM) You still there? I'm going to crash too...
adje: (3:21 AM) no not expensive,
Vagevuur is volunteers-organisation. scat is most expensive because of cleaningcosts. it's €12,- lodging is between €12,- and €16,- breakfast included I could subsidise if it causes you problems. (call it studycosts; what do you study by the way?) dresscode on scatnight is free, so you got people in leather and rubber, in bare ass, in clean or dirty underpants, with pipes, hoses and funnels, the works, and codes, well no, on scatnights it's not needed much, it shows itself and most people are versatile (=give&take)
nb.
did save this converation for conversion into a darkroomdiarie entry. (niet kompleet en letterlijk en ook je naam komt er niet in)
JEROEN: (3:24 AM) Think I can pay that...
ja, no probs...save it if you want en dank for not mentioning my name right now.. heej I wanna go with you....dusuh...reserv please!!! graag! WOOOOOOWIEEEEE!!! :)))
adje: (3:25 AM) good nite sweet (shitty) dreams
JEROEN: (3:27 AM) ja you too! thanx a million! I really find tip TOP and very agreeable! everyone into scat I spoke to up to now is so friendly!!! cool man... thanx again for talk and look so forward to meeting and to go to het vagevuur!! we keep in contact k??? sweet dreams to you too!! kissies and likkies and slikkies,
JEROEN
adje: (3:28 AM) hmmmmmm
JEROEN: (3:29 AM) xxx

Su 10-02-2002

will we be able to . . ?
yes, even double: you can in local elections 15 march in Rotterdam, and at parliament elections in may

Dynamic times here in the low countries:

More than 25% of visitors of this page are from the US and only 25% are from my own country, so why should they be interested in Dutch politics? I ask myself and then answer: why not? You may be preoccupied with winter olympics and a war against terror, but so are we, only is quite a different way:

This piece of the diaries can again be judged off topic, but is it?
Pim is a darkroom colleague of mine. Pim once burried his face in my ass in the Shaft darkroom and he was pretty good at it, so I still have a weak spot (ass?) for him. He's a very outspoken gay man, an Oscar Wilde type, promoting the single-life for gay men instead of the homo-marriage. And thus, he is very much under attack for his darkroom-lifestyle, by some muslim voices here he's called: "lower than a pig". But he's also under attack by middle class gay circles like the COC and most political parties.

We have a new party "Leefbaar Nederland", or LN, that chose professor PIM as it's election leader. A poll last week said that he would gather 22 seats of the 150 ( or was it 22 % of votes, which is even more dramatic, I'm not sure, but I'm not a journalist) at the next elections and that is unheard of for a brandnew party in Dutch politics.

Panic with the regular parties, especially the 3 that are now in governement, as they all 3 lose big time. Out comes the Volkskrant, one of four main national papers (catholic and elitist background) with an interview where Pim is supposed to have said that he wants to abolish article one in our constitution, the fundamentals of our principles of justice, which prohibits discrimination. So now all parties felt they had him nailed and gave a public sigh of relief and stated he is just plain fascist ultra-nazi-rightwing and should be banned from the elections.
Anyway LN threw out Pim, so now he will still stand at the elections under his own name, very likely to gather even more votes. I just returned from the Shaft (it's 3 am now). 4 TV corporations were at the door of the Shaft today, asking if they were allowed to film inside. including the EO, our fundamentalist religious tv channel, imagine them filming in a gay darkroom! Nobody was allowed anyway, but Ben, shaft manager, said that he would allow BNN, our underdog-counterculture channel.

Sundaymorning now. Just saw an interview with Pim recorded yesterdayafternoon in which he explained what was said in the Volkskrant interview. (sorry it is in Dutch) He did not say that article 1 should be scrapped. He said that if freedom of speech is impaired by fear of stepping on toes of religious or ethnic minorities, then we should reconsider article 1. After that I saw an interview with The chairman of Pim's party in which he announced that Pim and the party have parted. So Pim will be either retreating from politics, or appeal the decision at the party congress, or go it alone with a new list in the elections. In which case he may get more votes than he already had in LN. For starters I have taken off the link between the LN-party and the vote4pim button. As that link is officcially severed. Instead it now links to pim's official site, in Dutch but interesting.

Comments do seem make Pim a saint and martyr for freedom of speech, so his frankness seems to win in the end.

Sundayevening now. An hour of Pim on primetime, personally explaining that his expressed opinions have been clear and unchanged, ever since he first published them. Not taking a word back, also keeping respect for the party that he still wants to return from their error ways. All the time stealing the show, shaking hands from his car, with a dream of a chauffeur, and two sweet little dogs inside, as if he already was prime minister. He will go on to stand as listpuller for the Rotterdam LN party too, that distanced itself from the national LN party. First pollresults show he'll pull just as many votes on his own while LN still has half, so altogether that's 50% more votes! What a dream this is: another first for the Netherlands? After the gay marriage, euthanasia, an openly gay prime minister, promoting the darkroom lifestyle: WOW!

The story continues; on to 30 seats . . .
or is it nothing more than a dream, bound to explode in our faces?

As there is a lot of wildgrowth of webactivity on, about, behind, through Pim here a small list of secondary usefull PIM-links:
- pim-fortuyn.nl
- PIMforPRESIDENT.nl
- fortuyn-discussieforum
- onfortuynlijk.nl
- Pim diehards binnen leefbaar
- lijst-fortuyn 3 pimsites die zijn samengegaan
and to finish off the only mail adres:
- Pim Fortuyn
- G.W. Burgerplein 11
- 3021 AT Rotterdam

If you read around in what is said in all these fora: It starts to get a bit frightening. Just one quote: "Pim je bent voor mijn de leider van dit land". Most of those expressing support have not mastered the Dutch language yet. By their own standards they should thus be thrown out of the country ;) How in the world can he forge a workable party out of this following? sure is "a hell of a job"!

Mo 04-02-2002

on topic again
from here --›

off topic (partly) again

As I prediced 2 days ago the cd with the wedding tango was sold out all over Holland and Germany in one morning. Really incredibly potent music. I converted it to mp3 and wmf last night and have temporarily changed the soundfiles on this page to have all of you share this amazing work played by Carel Kraaienhof on Bandolero. The tearjerk-arrangement was done by our good old zuma-arrangeur Bob Zimmerman!

tumbled across manparrish.com highlighting this:
and
this featuring my fav eighties dancetrack "Malestripper" of which originate the unforgettable lyrics: "touch me squeez me oooh aaah . . strip for me babe and I'll strip 4 you, strip 4 me coz I want you to . . .I look like a truck and I'll pump for a buck . . .Wth the ultimate end: taken from a sermon from Jim Bakker, preacher of PraiseTheLord tv network fame, who took all the old ladies money and partied with secretaries untill he was found out: "We shall behold HIM; what a marvellous song and thought" followed by dragqueens giggling.
and even this great album from dearly missed soprano Klaus Nomi, with the amazing Aids-epic "Cold Song".
Manny is alive and kicking ass: still dj-ing (like me) and also running gay adult websites (like me) in NYC. Really warms the heart of this good old studio 54 veteran.
while off topic anyway:
Got word from I need 12 inches or more, all the way from the Groninger city G, my never ending mp3-source of 70's and 80's dancetrax, that he updated with Macho City by Steve miller

I have a scat session planned at home this month. That is a first! will keep you informed . . . would love to get images of that online too!

sa 02-02-2002

on topic again
from here --›

Maxima and Henk

This day will go down in history. Maybe not like 11-09-01, but for us Dutch surely as a the turning point for the better. And I needed that badly:

first: our royal wedding.
Maybe off-topic here, but it so uplifted my spirit that it cannot be ommitted.
It also lead to an amazing end of the day..
I'm not your greatest fan of the Dutch monarchs. Certainly not after our second prince in line for the throne, Friso, last year found it necessairy to declare officially that he was not gay. Now, if he's not he's not and that's just fine, but we all know that everybody who made similar statements in recent history proved to be seriously queer in the end and as he now is the only unmarried son of our queen, we just wait and see about that.
The marriage was beautiful and we all are fond of Maxima. She certainly will add some latin spirit to our rather stiff royal family. The links that were made with her troubled fatherland Argentina were sóóó touching: The Bandolero tango by Astor Piazola pulled tears not only from Maxima's eyes but from all the millions watching. WOW! That music is bound to be number one in the Dutch charts next week and the background for my next season of these diaries

The most amazing thing of the days proceedings and a sign of the state of Amsterdam's climate these days is that even the protest about Maxima's fathers participation in the Vileda junta was perfectly controlled: The spot were this was allowed on the route of the golden carriage tour was filled with skinheads, neopunks, argentinian mothers, and mostly olderly political activists. All looking much more like they were there promoting Amsterdam as a liberal city and far less threatening than similar actions in the eighties, when thousands of riot police were needed to keep things under control at Beatrix marriage and coronation. This crowd's roar did make a few of the police- and carriage horses stagger, but even that seemed orchestrated, as everybody knows these animals are perfectly riotproof and trained for years to even neglect firercrackers thrown beneat their feet. Even the paintbomb that landed on the golden carriage seemed anticipated: The guard walking at that window pulled kleenex out of his 17th century baroque costume and cleaned Maxima's window in seconds. The smoke bomb further along the route was also sancitioned by police and an artist impression of memories to past antiroyal sentiments producing orange smoke!

I finished off the day partying in the Shaft. And surprise (but expected): he was there. Who, you ask? My favorite man I wrote about here on 09-30-01 and on 05-20-01 and on 05-09-01 too. And we had another public humiliation scene even surpassing all sessions we had before. My tits still hurt like hell and it's been two days as I write this. It was nothing less then a masterclass session, witnessed in awe by quite a few Shaft-regulars. I did break the magic a bit: first, by asking his name . . he's called Henk. So now I know, after having sex with this guy for at least 7 years. And secondly, by cumming before he did. I hope he does not mind too much. I'm pretty sure, in all modesty, he still finds me the best cock- and ass- sucker he's ever had. I still find him the best looking and tasting ass, best mouthfucker, tit torturer and ballcruncher I èver had. Not to menion his unmodest body, his cruel eyes and . . Wish I had an image to share him with you. Bet he would not be too fond of thàt.

th 31-01-2002

Adrie

Let's start this story now, I also just remembered his last name again, so I have to write it down before I forget it for another ten years: Spiering. Funny that you should forget a name when it has so many letters in common with my own first and last name.

Yes people, listen up:
this is the story about my first love!
Mind you, not my first gay sex experience; I was sucking dickies out of view of the nuns bihind the bushes on the playcourt of kindergarden at age 5. My first love-affair I had when I was 11 years old. It was on a boyscout camping trip to St Michielsgestel or someplace in Brabant. We went there on bikes which is a hell of a trip for little boys of that age: About 100 km! I do not remember many details of the 7 days of camping, only that Adri was there. He was not from my boyscoutgroup, not even from my hometown of Pijnacker, but from Rotterdam. He just was dropped in our group for some reason. He was 2 years older and thus I was impressed easily. Nothing special happened for the first 4 or 5 days. Day 6 however we ended up together in a hut we built and got really close. I remember our bodies pressed together and insecure but very intense erections in between. The night after that I slipped between the sheets of his bed and that was something really wild to do when you're surrounded by 30 little potentail homophobes of 10 to 12 year old and one even sleeping (I hoped) on the bunkbed above. I also remember that the morning after I was asked if we had enjoyed the night together, so it was noticed after all, but the enquiry was casual and not in any way hostile. So I answered in all honestly that I had greatly enjoyed it. Must have been the first time I really did cum together with another boy. (or was it? I was pretty active with other classmates on adventurewalks through the polders around Pijnacker, anyway details of those events have been pushed even further back in my dormant long-term-memory-braincells).
Anyway, I still remember I hated that I had let the whole camping week pass without getting interactive with Adri untill the last night. Why these things always happen in the last 2 days of a full week is a mistery to this day, but it did. We cycled all the way home together in silence until we got through the bicycle Maastunnel in Rotterdam. We said goodbye on the escalator up and then he went on his way and I never saw him again.

That is until 3 years ago. When I placed an add on a Rotterdam sm contact website inquiring if anybody had a sling to spare for wasdag. And I got a message back from Barendrecht, where a certain Adri and his friend had one leftover from their old playroom. I got there and gradually realised that this guy, surely was the Adri from my boyscout adventure. I was too unsure however to bring it up. Just was positively surprised that he had ended up not only being happily gay but also having the same preferences as me: sm and scat too! He said he would come around to a wasdag, but never did to this day, so, as I did misplace his e-mail and home adress he will just remain a nice memorie until he shows up again.

If anybody reading this knows him:
please let me know.

Mo 21-01-2002

quote

this one is soóóo-fukkin-appropriate I just had to steal it (from henry hate ):
Yet I still have some fucking quirks even I don't understand and have been known to succumb to assholism. I've survived a lot of shit

We 16-01-2002

getting into gear

Finally januari routines are returning to normal and getting smoother. Work is stabilizing; (NOT !, but more on that later), The building is getting back to speed and I almost made up for the delay my illness between Christmas and Newyear caused. So with a bit of luck I'll be test running the steamroom later today and will have the separating wall and kitchenette back in place before feb 1st; the day Erwin is planned to start moving in. Which reminds me: I still have to figure out his rent, I do need it quick, since money is running out fast (see work, which is still to be written, but should not be included here, since it does hardly involve any sex).

Now on to what these pages are about: Coz I did catch up on that too!
Let me tell you about the virtues of a well hung sling. Yes, even here some progress is still to be made: It was last monday at wasdag that I ended up in one. Never was a great fan of the contraptions, but I guess one drink too many or better said a few filled to more than the official capacity by one of our too generous barmen, must have done the trick. And was I surprised that after climbing in my inviting(?) hole got filled in notime by a very expertly operated piece of dick? Guess not. Hmmm . . . was that gooood, and boy: does a sling make sense. And how silly of me to take like 3 decennia to find that out. So let me tell you all what's the clever thing of a sling: You are hanging, like you're suspended, like you can swing in any direction, like the guy who does the fucking can shove your whole body uo and down his tool with only the gentlest arm movement. Wòw, what an invention. And if you have such an expertly operated and beautifully shaped dick up your arse the action could go on like forèver, but then the steamroom would never get to see any action, so it's back to work NOW

p.s.
Just had a first steamsession, and it works! Even the eucalyptus pump eventually worked after I discovered it had an extra on/off switch at the back.

Tu 06-01-2002

nicked

bit tired after first working week, but I even survived the zuma-fanclub-get-together in Tiel! And as last week did not involve any sex, just plain old hard labour and travelling thousands of km's on German motorways I thought I'd better just copy the following from the exquisite pages of jonno:

My recent disclosure about the number of sex partners I've had provoked a few interesting weblog entries and several heated email responses, ranging from the incredulous (How can you have slept with that many people and not remember?) to the hostile (It's oversexed jerks like you that give gays a bad name!) to the more incredulous (That's it?) to the concerned (Have you ever thought about seeking counseling for your sexual addiction?).
Of these, the last one made me think the most, so I decided to devise and self-administer the following test to determine whether I actually have a problem:

• Do you find yourself sucking cock by yourself, or first thing in the morning?
• Do you occasionally suck cock after a disappointment, a quarrel, or when work is difficult?
• When sucking cock in a social situation, do you try to sneak a few extra partners when others will not notice?
• Are there certain occasions when you feel uncomfortable if cock is not available?
• Are you able to handle more cock than you did when you first started having sex?
• Have you recently noticed that you cannot handle as much cock as you used to?
• Do you sometimes feel guilty about sucking cock?
• Are you irritated when family or friends discuss your cocksucking?
• Do you try to avoid family or friends while you are sucking cock?
• Do you often find that you wish to continue sucking cock after your friends say you've had enough?
• Have you often failed to keep the promises you made about cutting down on your cocksucking?
• Do you sometimes have the "shakes" in the morning and find that it helps to suck a little cock?
• Do you sometimes suck cock for several days at a time?
• After periods of cocksucking, do you sometimes see or hear things that aren't there?
• Do you envy people who can suck cock without getting into trouble?
• Do people often tell you that they can smell cock on your breath?
• Do you tell yourself you can stop sucking cock anytime you want to?
• Have you ever felt your life would be better if you didn't suck cock?

Tu 01-01-2002

first installment

this is the first bit for 2002, so happy new year guys!
we all have our pockets full on new money, so let's just check if you all have the fonts that include the € sign. You don't? Well I guess if you're in the US you won't need it that bad but for the poor guys in the UK, let's see how long their £ will survive.

the new backgroundmusic is by miss Judy, as promissed. It is in ultralow quality to enhance authenticity and reduce loadingtime.

2001

It's all here

if you got the time
read on . . .