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29-03-2006 Budding Men
Was at the local gay club setting up the promotional videoprojection for next week's open stage night called :
mannen in de knop; pretty wild things blooming
sadly I discovered a breakin: the cupboard holding the liquor was busted, luckily not much more then a couple of bottles seemed missing. Later that evening one of the guys who does janitor tasks found the thief had lost his wallet, holding his ID. So indeed we do now have his identity with pass-photo. And I considered publishing it here on this page, but that in itself is still an offence in our country, so I will stick to what is legal in the Netherlands. The image and id: Fouad J, has been passed around through our barstaff maillist so everyone knows who to refuse entry for the moment. Now on one hand that made me smile, on the other hand it made me even sadder, as the photo showed it was a guy I knew all too well: he's one of the young guys from foreign origin who has a refugee status, but he may now seriously risk losing it, and be trown out by Mrs Verdonk's immigration services. He may be a petty thief, but he also was a pretty hot and skilled little fuck buddy, and I must say, I had been warned about the guy, but he never did steal anything from me, possibly because I never let him slip out of sight, but maybe only coz I did try to treat him as respectfully as I could.
But hey, so does the DWH!

It is a non commercial place that needs burglars like a hole in the head. We hardly avoided bancrupcy only 3 years ago after a series of break-ins, windowsmashings by agressive youths, and a very uncollegial publicity campaign by another gay bar (that eventually bancrupted itself).

Despite my anger I try to remain respectful here. I also stick to Dutch law, not allowing media to disclose full names and identifiable photographs of guys tho are not yet convicted of a crime. He has lost a considerable amount of baby-fat since that pass-photo was shot anyway; he looks much more like this guy from a Glen Hanson artwork, including hairstyle, bulge and ass, but not the tat or abs.

Somehow this week was "guys in heat" week. The above described boy was at the movie night last wednesday, but I was not too interested, coz I had been pulled into the celler, to do the dirty, just minits earlier by a little chinese guy in heat. Just hope his disapointment did not trigger the burglery. The thursday I was called by a Pakistani friend who's honoured with this song. He badly needed some assistance in taming his dick. Well, the two of us managed to get that job done in next to no time. Last night I ended up at the MSR meat meet at Gayplay. There I was jumped on by a pretty muscleguy from the UK. I sure hope this is just the start of the growing season:
may it run long and fierce !

Oh yeah, I promissed to tell that tickets for the XXX parties can now be obtained at gayplay! If enough guys are going from Rotterdam (or Delft and Den Haag) it may include a busride up and down to Westzaan.

26-03-2006 Triple X
The bi-monthlytickle your fancy with a leaking Antinous XXX party was as usual: extremely hot and the ultimate golden shower and fuck opportunity in the country at this time. Fun thing was that Johan van Breukelen was making photographs there. He was extremely busy all night with dozens of willing and able bodies in every conceivable hot pose, and as he'd already shot me last month. I did not bother him and instead place the result of Martin's dirty mind after our museumvisit of last month. I will link to the resulting partypix as soon as they come online.

Also I'm working with my downstairs neighbour on his garden design. He's thinking of a sculpture in it, but does not want the obligatory concrete David. The Antinous here is from the plastercast depository in Wageningen, NL. Does anybody know if conrete casts of this statue are for sale anywhere? We sure are interested in this god of true homosexual love. And if we can insert some tubing to get him leaking like this, we certainly will!

21-03-2006 Gemeentemuseum Den Haag Nudes
Visited the nudes exhib in Den Haag together with Martin.
and then I use one of the few not fully nudes here, but this David by Jules Delaunay was too gorgeous
the result is a huge update on the history pages and the modeldrawing section on delftboys.

21-03-2006 Hmmm!
Was at the Boss tonight. Amazingly, about a dozen policemen had gathered in front of the door, so I was wondering if somebody had had a hartfailure inside or someting like that. No, that was not the case: Two appartments above it had been raided because they were used as cannabis plantations; a pretty regular event in our country. I am not against legalising cannabis, but these residential plantations steal the electric power from neighbouring real estate. So it's a good thing that the police round them up: the Boss too had been without power for about 24 hours, so I had no ice in my drink. Although this police action had nothing to do with the Boss, about half of the clientèle found this police presence reason enough to make a U-turn. And good riddance! What remained were the real men, who don't get scared by police so easily; au contraire! A great night was had by all. And I hope the police will be in front of the door more often to scare away the tight ass softies nobody needs.

19-03-2006 a Shitty Sundaymorning
What better way to spend an overcast sunday then to go visit a reading and booksigning from one of our nations major writers at your local bookstore. Especially when he just published a book about Shit! So there I went, accompanied by shitmaster extraordinaire Martin of Holland and the downstairs neigbour, both with cams on standby. Even more surprised I was that in the store I also found the upstairs neighbour Jeroen, who, even more professional, was accompanied by his own photographer, as he was doing his report for the local newspaper.

The reading was not about this new book, but about an earlier one dealing with Richard Wagner. There also was an interlude from Tanhauser and a live guitarplayer, all very nice! Hope the images come out ok here.
Me, in the usual blue bikerjacket, above Mr Shit, below AD photographer, Right Mr Gerrit Komrij

16-03-2006 ROIDS AND RANTS
Already had his link up here for a while, but recently discovered some images taken from my pages on his log, so I thought: why not return the favour,

because our ex porn star has a quite interesting taste when it comes to imagery. Here are just a few of the most awesome samples:

Sadly mr. Pete Finland does not write much, his taste in music and books is pretty ok, but even the image of himself is pretty small, so not much more to forward here than his superb choice in images.

11-03-2006 final word on politics, for a while
Lots of confusion in the past election week. I really had decided not to vote for the party of Verdonk and Ali if she would not make a clear statement about gay refugees before election day. Luckily, like Ali she went to a gay bar to clarify her stand. It was all based on a report from the ministry of foreign affairs that said that gays could have a life in Iran, if they kept quiet (?!). She had only said that if that is so, she would indeed stop giving asilum to Iranian gays. She also did go to refugee groups and gay organisations to verify the findings of foreign affairs and found it not at all trustworthy. Their argument that the two guys shown below had committed other crimes was laid aside: they were indeed 16 and 17 year old gay lovers and the Iranian gouvernement is villain enough to add a few more crimes to solidify their death sentence, as not to get in even more trouble with other nations. Stupid thing is our minister of foreign affairs buys their misleading. So no Iranians gays and christians will be deported for quite some time.
Above is Nina Hagen, performing in New Orleans this weekend, it's NOT minister Verdonk, mind you, although there are similarities.

06-03-2006 More politics
The minister of social affairs and the minister of immigration and integration are visiting the Prinsenhof here in Dellft this afternoon. I just have to be there to protest against te latter's decision to send Iranian homos back there. Her argument is that if they keep their mouth shut they can lead a normal life there. I was going to vote for her party, but if she does not withdraw this deadly plan before tomorrow's election I just cannot, even though Hirshi Ali is from the same party.
can we find any reason to permit this to be done with 16/17 year old boys
can no precedent policy be reason to coöperate with this?

05-03-2006 Hirsi Ali visits gay bar

ROTTERDAM
(this bit is partly from the AD newspaper, translated from Dutch real fast). It is always nice to have good friends making headlines; just hope he does not forget to return the 2 dvds he borrowed; need 'm badly as they're the nr 2 and 3 from my best ever list

„With all these guards around, how do you find a nice man?’’ asks 25-year old Simon de Ruijter (right; as if we'd mistake him for Ayaan?) © ARIE KIEVIT AD, not me, stupid!in Rotterdam's homo bar Strano of VVD-politician Ayaan Hirsi Ali. THat is a serious problem, she confides to the Delft student. De Ruijter in one go succeeds in advising Hirsi Ali where she should look. „You come over as a pretty steadfast lady, so you should find a man who also can take a beating or two, so you are in the right city here: you should fall for a Rotterdammer.’’ Mrs Ali laughs loudly at this relationship-suggestion. Hirsi Ali visited the gay bar this saturday to have her say about intolerance towards homos. Recent internet research shows that over 25% of gays have encountered discrimination and aggression last year on Rotterdam's streets. On on 3 of the replies spoke of decrease in acceptation amoungst youths and immigrants.
„It's good that we have this talk here, but I have some bad news’’ sais the MP „Homo hatred will not just go away. Moreover, I think it will first get a lot worse.’’ And looking around the bar, Hirsi Ali had more advise. Do involve your women in this fight against homo-intolerance. „Coz somehow, I do not see many of 'm here’’.

Marien JongewaardWork
Coming month (and a half) I will not be updating this and other pages, also my homepage, wasdag and queerart itself. As I will be full out on tour again with LOVE and for Station Zuid . Earlier prepared updates on Delftboys will take place as usual.

Have you notied how suspiciously Marien is looking down on the guys below?

04-03-2006 Euro Youth conference
We have a European gay youth conference here in Delft this summer, subsidised by the Europarliament (Bruxelles et Strassbourg , hmmm, I'll be there this summer again for the annual scatcamp!). My downstairs neighbour was wondering what the fuck the were up to on their euromeet. I guess the picture sais it all:an important project requiring some responsibility
training the youth of today to assume responsibility tomorrow

03-03-2006 Hello Jim
Yep, he was at the doorcover of Lou Reed's transformer. His song 'Oh Jim' is on the Berlin album of the DWH last sunday, hesitant to go in. We are aware of the phenomenon. On Laundrydays we always leave a lttle gap in the curtains, that are closed only once a month to keep indecent acts from being observed by innocent passers by. But hey, if maroccan youths really stop and linger at our front door for minits, trying to have a peek, who are we to deny them their short moment of bliss? Eric, my neighboor, was just leaving, so he had a short chat and encouraged him to go in if he was in distress, sexually. And, amazingly, he did! So, more amazingly, as the age difference must be around 25 years and there were plenty of guys of his own age present, we left about another hour later to go to his place to relief his overloaded glands, and his bladder while we were at it. It was a night to remember and we did exchange data to do a repeat whenever pressure rose high again. WOW, that is why I do like these foreign guys: not in search of some highly moral relationship, but always ready for quick relief into any assholes that are available. In honour of this guy I offer you guys a great new (old ) song the Softies did in the later seventies. Another item related to his name is this hot story by Gus Mattox.

01-03-2006 Faubourg
Another first: I'm hanging on the wall at Faubourg gallery: one of the bikersetpix, made by Johan van Breukelen has made it to the exhibition of 3 scene-photographers that opened last saturday.
Also nice is there are a lot of pix of Ralf König, this time not his cartoons, but himself as model, mostly in a stylish suite, pants on his knees, pissing over and into naked guys in derilict building. Great! I also had a talk there with Tjaak Broek, the chairman of stichting Gents about filming at their triple X parties in Westzaan. They had a few photoshoot trials and an amazing number of visitors go wild about recording themselves in some sort of action, so it is bound to be repeated a few more times. Work shot there is also at the exhibition. I suggested doing it a bit more in the Inca - dungeeon area of the place. Hope it will come about . . .
A shitty thing to report too: I have serious trouble right now exporting video from my pc. I'm afraid some extensive renewal of software is overdue, before the whole setup, crashes and all work sofar gets lost. Meanwhile I have made somew larger then usual fragments available of the shoot I did last summer at the Strassbourg camp over on manscat.

26-02-2006 MSA and MSR
Just re-joined Rotterdam's Motorclub

problem is that this club and its A'dam equivalent are getting on in age, and with that, the days they formed the epitaph of erotic attraction seem long gone. That is really sad, and these days when the entire young generation stays behind their pc's and get even fatter than us old goats. At some point they will find out their prince will not be found through MSN or Yahoo; that the one they chat with is 40 years older then they themselves and just like they themselves used an image of a pornstar instead of their own in the profile. So we need the attraction of a very welcoming european organisation which combines hospitality and comradery with a multitude of very up to date extreme queer party opportunities, where the most experienced and levelheaded, down to earth dirty perves get together . Sure they use the internet too, but not for dry-wanking: they get off their asses travel all around the globe and really grope each other instead of dreaming away their lives. Now who said we do not need that anymore ?
SHUT UP you fuck!

24-02-2006 movies, drawings, dungeons
One movie I saw and not told you about was the french juste une question d'amour It's a very sensitive account of what can

happen if a progressive mother takes the coming out of her son's closeted boyfriend into her own hands and confronts his parents. Apart from being very intense it has 2 gorgeous main actors: cyrille thouvenin(above) and Stephan Guerin-Tillier (below l), who looks very similar to Abu Jahjah, belgian Muslim activist( below r)

Further notable events: I've been working with Californian artist Leo Dunn, who makes highly hypnotizing drawings of his main fetish: musky hairy armpits and groins. His work can be found in the delftboys masterclass. Last nite on my visit to the Boss in Den Haag I still was very inspired and delved into an evening of smelling and licking, wallow and swallow. It was just one of the most amazing hot nights of this year sofar, ending with me puking on one of the most intense deep throat experiences I can remember. This one was of that size! Yep, it must have ejaculated directly into my stomach.

22-02-2006 Vinco David
I've been reading up on my muslim history as tomorrow I'm attending a bookpresentation in "Balie" Amsterdam Mr David and minister Verdonk. The book is somewhat enlarged to keep title readableof a book called ‘Male harem', which is supposed to break the taboo about islam and homosexuality. First copy was already accepted by our minister of immigration and integration Rita Verdonk, and filmdirector Eddy Terstall ( see film ‘Simon’ in my film top 50) will do the same on stage. The book is richly illustrated and even perfumed; Theo van Gogh wrote the introduction, just before he was assasinated. Prem Radhakishun Dutch muslim tv personality and columnist will play a gay indian emperor in an introductory sketch.

‘Mannenharem’ is a historically accurate adventure. It unfolds against a backdrop of age old islamic tradition of the Indian Mogul emperors. Main character Omar, descendant of them, reveils india of 3 centuries ago. Omar not only finds the lovelife secrets of his ancestors, but also his own homosexuality. He's no longer sure of his life when he tells his family. The book evoces the subtle oriental eroticism of 1001 (ehm 1002) nights, in which poëtic sensuality and brute abuse of power goo hand in hand.
Arab Gays from gay club Habibi Ana 2001, last year they dared to come out on Amsterdam's canal parade. img: volkskr
Part of the presentation is a mini seminar by hstoricus Jos Gommans (Universitey Leiden), one of Europa’s main Mogul authority, Omar Nahas, publicist and scientist at the Yoesuf foundation, education centre for Islam and society. He'll talk about alternating periods of more and less tolerance in islam. Also Henk Krol, dutch gay pope, en John Jansen van Galen, journalist at Het Parool and Radio 1. Minister Rita Verdonk got her copy because in her portfolio resides the task to make homoseksuality an acceptable issue in islam. Vinco David (1961) lives in Amsterdam. Next to writer he is manager at an insurance company, studied politics en Italian. He is (co-) author of various managementbooks. Just before his death Theo van Gogh wrote about ‘Mannenharem’: Because its written so compelling and you'd almost forget the author has done extensive research. It nevertheless is incredibly accessible. All kinds of readers will get an unexpected peek in a unsuspected world in this fingerlickin' debut .

here's a bit of an Indian history lesson for starters:
Tolerant muslim emperor Jelaleddin Mahmomet Akbar 1542-1605) was the greatest of the Mogul emperors and under his 49 years reign, conquered all of Northern India and Afghanistan, extending his rule as far south as the Godvari River. The Moguls were Muslims who ruled over a Hindu majority. Akbar maintained his rule by his religious tolerance and Mogul military might, much like the British later. But after his death, the empire began to decline. This decline continued with the rule of Aurangzeb (1658-1707), who became emperor in 1658. Mogul control in south India came under more pressures with the increase of strong attacks by the Hindu Maratha princes. To worsen matters, Aurangzeb, who lacked Akbar's religious tolerance, imposed special taxes on Hindus, destroying their temples and forced them to convert to Islam. Soon after Aurangzeb's death, the empire began breaking up, enabling the British to step into the void.

16-02-2006 sad, sadder, saddest
Wanted to write a bit about gay radio. We all know the trivial disco that comes with gaydar these days, but there is quite a bit of culture to be had too: Daniel Nardicio not only organises parties all over the USA, he also interviews his campy and/or sexy guests every saturdaynight on East Village Radio, and it is all neatly archived in podcasts too. This allso reminded me that we've had gay radio in Amsterdam now for twenty odd years. And of course that is online too! I just found an old friend, I had not seen for 2 decades, back there presenting a program. this fag is bashing backSadly their news this week focusses on the same topic as my log does of late: the war against Muslims. This week another guy was stabbed when returning home from partying at Reguliersdwars (a gay bar street) Last year I was at a friendly demonstration against antigay violence in Amsterdam (see 18-5-'05). This time the community is losing its patience and seems to be orginising their own vigilante groups. I report this here, to show that it is not just me radicalising, but this escalating violence begins to look like what happened between 1920 and 1940. So we really must take it serious. Nice side effect is that words and terms and symbols that we first used in the mid seventies are returning as this badgedesign shows.

audio is from my Queer Dutch vaults: Groningen's gay band from the mid seventies Supertamp! From the days when we did not (have to) shy away from explicit lyrics. This cetrtainly could be called a pornografic song. Sorry guys, it is in Dutch.

14-02-2006 more of the same
While all infrastructure was out I could still listen to my portable DAB radio where I picked up a lecture by Albert van den Heuvel, Dutch theologian, giliberti great portrayer of French allochtonesone who in the past had even walked the Selma Alabama and other marches with Martin Luther King. He said some great things: Rational peace loving Muslims, by joining in the anti Danish violence, have done a much better job in ridiculing their own faith than any cartoonist could. Of course a) they proved they had not really seen the cartoons and were acting on hearsay from officials who were on orders of authorities that do not allow free thinking and the ismam obviously is not ripe to survive without dictatorship. b) They did not see the cartoons were actually not making fun of the religion, but of stupid people, the terrorists, who are mis-using the name of Allah in a much more serious way. So if the Danes offended it was only against the second commandment of Moses, who indeed is also considered a muslim prophet, but in that they used an image of Mohammed, borrowed from the muslims themselves, proving some muslims do not take the word of Moses too serious when it fits their own argument.

Yep, in the end I did go for a fuck, but fortunately, I can now report a negative experience. I know you all much rather read the mishaps than the report on friday and saturday, where I could not but truthfully tell you that I did over a dozen fucks. (approprately K.D. Lang is on the radio now: CONSTANT CRAVING, yep!). You all know I do like my Frankensteins and do not shy away from any S&M scene, but tonight I had one of those guys who feel they can order you about, use up your entire poppers bottle and deliver nothing that is only slightly rewarding in return. No sir! He even had the guts to ask me if I was desease free. Stupid cow did not gather that even I am not so easily tempted to engage in risk activities with such ugly horrid lowlives.

12-02-2006 Infrastructure collapse
A new deep parking garage is being built 300 m from here. Groundwork does not go without tairing apart all that's in the ground: Last week we had a powerfailure of an hour or 2. This monday we "only" have a complete breakdown of cable services in the entire city, so no internet, tv, or phone for many of us, for 24 hours and probably a birthwave in 9 months. So probably we'll have no gas, water or sewage discharge to look forward to. You have no idea how dependant on these services we've become: it's what shall we do tonight, read a book or fuck? What? Again? Problem is I already did sooo much fucking this weekend. Friday it started with the XXXL party, whith an incredible number of men in heat, and that is an understatement. The first two hours it went nonstop with about a half dozen fucks and being fucked by a similar number. Hmmm. After that the presence of the safe sex police gota bit too threatening: They did put me off, with their close inspections, whether I was or was not using condoms was not the point; I don't like being policed while having sex PERIOD. I'm allergic to that! The saturday was taken up by a daytrip payed for by Heineken, for all our Delft DWH volunteers. Very nice. A canalboat trip was included too, something we Dutrch are not likely to do but a great experience ! Only problem: too much beer. Being a jenever person, I hardly ever drink the stuff, so 4 glasses and 2 bottles caused me to have incredible piss problems the remainder of the evening. If the triple X would have been an evening later, I could have brought all that juice to good use by downloading in the multitude of thirtsty mouths in the golden shower area. I could have filled the golden shower pool all by myself, easy (sounds a lot like fishermen's Latin doesn't it? Like on the T-shirt below; can't help it here, it's true!). Now the group fell apart after dinner at de Jaren: most wanted to go to the nerdy twink area around Reguliersdwars, while I felt more Warmoesstraat - inclined and did some additional topping up slash downloading there.

Got some more reactions on the bike project. A friend did a search for local bikers on gaydar and came up suggesting this guy: gaydar.nl/motormuscle he said, quote: "that looks quite tasty" Weird thing was, that guy, being a good old buddie, already was the first to join my list. I also tried to contact another 24 year old boy from delft at www.gaydar.nl/euro_boy.gr because according to Vriendelle his profile said he not only had a bike but also a very big dick. He's 24 so I guess he will not reply. I'll keep you guys posted.

Oh yep, the new BUTT is out and had an interview with former Icon with "Franky goes to Hollywood", Paul Rutherford. After Franky he had a band called "ButtCowboys", and has that tattood across his back. Now that is a super idea! I'm seriously thinking of stealing (in singular and vertically across the right side, with a slight j form, pointing the right way). Now I only need to look for a good bold font, as this is not going to be ye olde tribal neo ghothic letterjob! It's much better than buttsurfer, which suggest I should be a top. I only top on uneven days . . .eh ;)

09-02-2006 and I repeat:
me and my biker bitsStill not much progress on the nakedbikersearch front announced here on 01-02. As I'm off tomorrow to the XXX party I thought it would be wise to have cards with information on the project tucked in my rubberboots, so some updating on webpages was called for. Also I felt like I should set an example: If a 55 year old goat could pose nekkid then anybody could. So I set off to get my ass (and some other bits) on film, eh, memorycard, actually. The result was not half bad, and I can recommend a session with Johan van Breukelen to anybody who's able to pass by Utrecht. A session with him is just great fun and utterly relaxing, and does give a result that you do not have to hide in a shoebox deep down your bikeshed, as you can see here and here for more.
Oh yep, the new BUTT is out and had an interview with former Queer Icon with "Franky goes to Hollywood" Paul Rutherford. After Franky he had a band called "ButtCowboys", and has that tattood across his back too. Now that is a super idea! I'm seriously thinking of stealing (in singular and vertically across the right side, with a slight j form, pointing the right way). Now I only need to look for a good bold font, as this is not going to be ye olde tribal neo ghothic letterjob! It's much better than buttsurfer, which suggest I should be a top. I only top on uneven days . . .eh ;)

06-02-2006 We only angered the obsolete god of the Greeks
Did the Danes really intend to step on sensitive muslim toes with their cartoons? In the Roman Catholic church there is a philosophy, that says you cannot offend or humiliate Jesus Christ, because he chose the ultimate humiliation himself. That is why imagery of a naked Christ hanging from a cross is never considered humiliation. Nor is the pretty overweight naked sitting Buddha. Nor was there any problem with depicting naked gods with the Greeks or in ancient Rome. In fact the main god of the Greeks, was honoured for his hypersexuality and did not think twice about having sex with a multitude of females and males.
shake hands with the Greeks, sorry his face is Moses', a shared prophed for Jews, Muslims, Christians
Humbling yourself is considered true virtue., being able to take fundamental criticism, being able to stand being made fun of; be rational instead of a mindless hothead. On that we feel muslims are doing just fine in degrading themselves and insulting their own religion. In Europe we do make fun of religious symbols all the time, just as we do with politiciens. It is considered true enlightenment that we can freely make choices for either of these gods, or non, for that matter. That is our pride, that we do not want muslims to ridicule. What we in turn cannot grasp is that you should need violence and oppression to keep peoples in line with any faith. Religion is supposed to stand high above what mortals try to enforce. Can I make one more silly joke? We do not need force here; people are stupid enough to choose religions out of free will.

05-02-2006 Breakdown barriers
There is a lot to be said for keeping great beauty under cover, especially when it is male.
veiled male
As we see here and further below too, arab couture would do great at our dresscode danceparties.

06-02-2006 Bareback
as we see here, half of that is just fineFinal words on the movie and the image shown here a few days ago, depicting the real Heath Ledger and a standin for Jake Gyllenhaal. It made no other conclusion possible then that Jake needed the standin because he either was a true prudish middle american, weird as he grew up in LA, or he just is to small endowed. In that case he could have used the Pasolini approach: he attached really impressive rubber tools to his naked players. It was also used to good effect by Marky Mark Wahlberg when he played Durk Diggler, the superhung hetero porn actor in Boogy Nights.

I hope to conclude a standin was needed, because he's about to jump the Niagara falls on that photo, when I finally see the film. Maybe that will make my judgement a bit milder than it's been thusfar. Now let's just quietly anticipate how many oscars will be harvested next month.

05-02-2006 True respect b
Is it worth it? A Dutch Belgian muslim organisation has placed some pretty tastless cartoons on their website, amongst them one of Anne Frank sharing a bed with Adolf Hitler. Their argument: if the Arab world is supposed to be tolerant about cartoons, as the AEL site is offline, I thought I'd lend them a handlet's see if the western world is as tolerant. I can tell you the answer: nobody will give a toss about what they publish. We view this the same way as cartoons about the pope, depicted as a child murderer, because he allows aids to flourish by forbidding condoms and is responsible for many unwanted children with no future. I had Jesus Christ's asshole here, with George W popping out of it. All in the best possible taste as we used to say. Let's make it clear one more time: I oppose all religion based oppression.Better still: I oppose all religion PERIOD. Indeed, this column and my gay art webcollection are full of examples. But it made me think: am I really sure that the AEL action will not trigger another mosque burning like we had a whole series here last year when the Theo van Gogh was assasinated? Indeed, there are madmen here, just as well as in the middle east, a few less, mind you, but nevertheless. Being against this kind of brainless escalation of silly gut sentiments, I felt I could put a symbolic lid on this kitchenfire by taking of the original Mohammed cartoon off this page. So from now I can boast the first instance of selfcensorship here, and be proud of it.

04-02-2006 True respect
Was considering to take away yesterday's image, because it degrades the website and is insulting to all other persons depicted here. This diary is purely about beauty and nice things and should not be contaminated with a face that generates hate, stupidity and causes spiralling agression. But then again, I said it, so it stays. Even if it's only to make the point that we will not be scared into fearfull withdrawal. The Arab action, now spreading across the world, if anything, is an insult to all the muslims living in Scandinavia, who since september have not found any reason to take action against these cartoons. To compensate I was looking for another image, one of more beauty, like one of the muslim boyfriend of Bruce LaBruce, who generates pure respect and awe through his gorgeous, eh . . . body!Bruce's (ex) Lover
Nothing degrading or disrespectful here, just a courageous guy who feels he can honestly combine religion and sexuality. Just had a look at the current site of Bruce. Weird thing is that it is fully soaked in blood and violence too, his last film being about the eroticism of violence within the seventies' German terrorist Bader Meinhof group. Go see that film instead of the Spielberg movie and do some good for independent film producers who can still think.

03-02-2006 There's just no reasoning with fanatics
self censorship: the mohammed bomb-turban cartoon was here originally. It was a pretty ugly face anyway Admit it, this turban/bomb thing could be the next fashion hit on the Muslim streets! Muslim outrage huh?
OK ... let's do a little historical review. Just some lowlights:

Commercial airliners fly into buildings in New York City. No muslim outrage.
Muslims hang two boys, because they were sleeping with each other. No outrage.
Muslim officials block the exit where school girls try to escape a burning building because their faces were exposed. No outrage.
Muslims cut off the heads of three teenaged girls on their way to school in Indonesia. A Christian school. No outrage.
Muslims murder teachers trying to teach Muslim children in Iraq. No outrage.
Muslims murder over 80 tourists with car bombs outside cafes and hotels in Egypt. No outrage.
Muslims slaughter hundreds of children and teachers in Beslan, Russia. Muslims shoot children in the back. No outrage.
Let's go way back. Muslims kidnap and kill athletes at the Munich Summer Olympics. No outrage.
Muslims fire rocket-propelled grenades into schools full of children in Israel. No outrage.
Muslims murder more than 50 commuters in attacks on London subways and busses. Over 700 are injured. No outrage.
Muslims murder innocent vacationers in Bali. No outrage.
Muslim newspapers publish anti-Semitic cartoons. No outrage.
Muslims are involved, on one side or the other, in almost every one of the 125+ shooting wars around the world. No outrage.
Muslims beat the charred bodies of Western civilians with their shoes, then hang them from a bridge. No outrage.
Newspapers in Denmark and Norway publish cartoons depicting Mohammed. No outrage.
Dead children. Dead tourists. Dead teachers. Dead doctors and nurses. Death, destruction and mayhem around the world at the hands of Muslims . . . No outrage,
but publish a cartoon depicting Mohammed with a bomb in his turban and all hell breaks loose.

Above was copied on request. Those religious fanatics are getting on my nerves. Luckily intelligent muslims too get tired of these juvenile loudmouths. Those who preach and practice violence deserve nothing but life behind bars. Hope George W for a change does what he says and reduces his dependence on oil. Then, and only then, in a few years all terror threats will be rendered insignificant and melt away.
If they really think they need fear and terror to keep the religion pure, just let them have it! Only to keep their pit of immorality far from our society, we should take the consequences: stop supporting it by paying for their oil. If we had alternatives we could really give our fight against terrorism some clout.

02-02-2006 Wasdag eh LaundrydayTiga is queer, dear!
"Hello, You're gonna want me, but when you want me it might be a different story" a quote from dj Tiga, and you can hear a lot more of him next monday on the Laundryday Saunaparty. Non pretentious but very well produced electro disko and loads of covers, that is what I'm into most these days, and apart from that this guy has 3 more great plusses: he's Canadian, looks totally HOT and is Queer! Hooray, Hooray, it's a holy holly day? ("hol" meaning ass in Dutch, and Boney M has not been mentioned here in the last 3 months, so there you go) He plays today at the Paradiso in Amsterdam, but it's sold out and way too cold to try to get there. Anywayz, one of my fav artists for the moment, or should I say here that I also greatly enjoyed the Mozart 250 birthday overkill of last weekend, as he had his own ways of being queer. Now let us just hope and prey that it will not be minus 10 or so, coz that seriously means trouble for the saunatemperature. Well on that note, maybe I should do a pic here of one of the dj's who's doing the turntables coming wasdag: Peter Hamelink, who also won the Mr DWH title for 2005
foto by benedenbuuf

01-02-2006 naked biker search continuesWillem's artwork comes in handy again
Already mentiond this project on the first of januari, but, as expected, this is a much tougher nut to crack then you might think: We're not living in the seventies anymore, when I would have the list filled with willing volunteers in no time. These days even the guys who are positive about the idea start having second thoughts about their waistline, dicksize etcetera. But there are poz reactions too: young guys who have no bikerlicence yet, nor a bike, but as this is an indoor event non of these have to be an reason to reject them. As long as they can be trusted not to fall down when negotiating a ramp or a narrow turn. More important is that they are the relaxed proud types that have no problems with their bodies, their looks or sexual orientation. That is all that is needed. To get you guys in the mood to participate I've set up a separate page here. Also I was at Johan van Breukelen's studio today where we made some great pictures I will get 'm across here once I receive some to show that the project is not about making a fool of the participants but making them even more beautiful then they could ever be in real life . If that can be done even with a 56 year old guy like myself, then it surely can be done with most of you. Which does not mean I will dismiss young guys; Senseless age discrimination is what I dispise most these days.


29-01-2006 back to the darkroom
After the Shaft reunion party of last month it was decided to amke it a montly do as a sortof re-emerigence of the city of Rotterdam in the dirty sex scene. So last friday I had a peek at episode two of the Shaftish event at GayPlay. It was a lot less eventfull as the first one: Entrance fee was up to €7,50, which is 50 % more then what The Boss charges, while you get a lot more sex for your money in then Haag. What also pisses me off is that after you tucked away your wallet you have to dish it up again to pay the cloathes check. Why not include that in the entry fee? Luckily next week we have Wasdag saunanite again, which costs only €4,- Saturday I tried Rotterdam again, for the MSR party at COC, the space has been redone in a kind of stilish campy way with large mirrors, big chandeliers and 3 great artworks above the bar, but that is about all I can tell you. The party will never come to life if letting your dick out is not on the menu. So arround 1-ish I stepped on my bike in the freezing cold again (minus 10 celcius), and went to Den Haag, only to find the only really gorgeous 2 dicks I saw at COC Rdam had drawn the same conclusion, one of them dicks really was a sight to behold, if not to do other sporty things with, but we never got to see that in Rotterdam!
sauna party in Delft, 6-2-'06

27-01-2006 sordid erratum
Got told off by our dvdj! Appearantly I did not watch the movie as attentive as I should: At the end of the movie the main character, yep, the Danny looking so temptive below, gets beaten up by a bunch of skinheads. The nephew is part of this group and telling the others Danny's a fag. So it does work to render a person irrecognisable when he shaves his head. Even so good that it makes staying on track with this story downright impossible.
another minus for brokeback: Heath Ledger (left) played this for real, but Mr. Gyllenhaal chose to be replaced by a standin for this scene: chicken!)
I was wrong about meeting criterium nr 1 for inclusion in my film top 50 in the entry of jan 17th, but still, finding out Heath was real but Jake G. used a standin for this scene, truly made my pants drop to my ankles.

Another nice thing to help us through the cold: the hot well endowed halfnude iceskater image below appeared on a huge poster this week on all railwaystations, in a campaign to promote poetry, accompanied by a poem telling how good he looks from of one of Holland's greatest writers Jan Wolkers.

26-01-2006 back to the sordid
Not going to filosophise any further about the bareback mountain movie that euro-premiered tonight in Rotterdam, as I've justabout read all I can take in too deep nonsense on it in the NewYorker, but today I saw a film that almost everybody considered too cheap, while the depth was considerably deeper then BBM. hero Thierry PepinI'm talking about Danny in the Sky where we have a tramatised, superspoiled, but gorgeous brat doing his selfish act, just because his dad was gay and spent the last 15 years acting straight only to help his son through highschool without getting traumatised. This sure is a supreme recipe for a fucked up storyline. Nevertheless, the main character does show his dick (that will do, thank you, ehm . . . this is meant to convey that it indeed is a nice sight), almost has sex with his gay dad, has a counterpart with gorgeous tats (yep, even two seagulls on his chest) and a very, very macho low, low, voice. Pity the script is so totally queer as not to have any feelings for the nephew, who gets overdosed by our Dannyboy. We never get told if he survived. But if the soundtrack had gotten a bit more prominence (we do hear a great STAKKER house-version of Boney M's Daddy Cool) it could have turned into just as great a cultmovie as the one currently nr 2 on my all-time movielist. On IMDB the review by a guy called Ryan Kelly (thatdog99@aol.com) is a great example of American immaturity (he thinks he knows how to make movies, why then does he bother writing crap reviews?) and degrading, it makes you feel better about the movie every second you read on. So glad that unlike this Mr Kelly we do NOT belong to the Hollywood tribe that thinks the way to make movies is to only employ cocksuckers who've never sucked one. Cheers for Montreal and Canada, just hope things will not move parallel to the US with their new governement.

25-01-2006 speedskating
With all of Europe tumbling into recordbreaking coldspellsJochem we vdVeldeDutch are getting ready for the alltime fav pass- time that even us queers can't ignore: the scates are pulled from the grease paper!

So if you do not hear from me for a few days, you know where I am: on Ice! And will leave you here with some scating imagery to warm your knuckles, if nothing else:
I could pull out some old skatepix of myself, but I did that earlier, so for older skate adventures go to this account from 09-12-02 in Heerenveen. Erben Wennemars and Jan BosOr look up my nude skating pic. I quess you do remember the one by van den Velde too. (that one does deserve a repeat show) But there are new talents now that do not shy away from showing their bods, like Jan Bos, who even got framed gorgeously by gay photographer Ewoud BroeksmaJan Bos by Ewoud Broeksma. But there are only so few days we get the chance to go skating in the wild, on all the canals and polders and the most amazing landscapes we have so much of, but hardly ever get a chance to see because they're not approachable from motorways but only through the veins of our lowland. Or the guy who got into a skatecrash earlier this season so will not make it to the Olympics: Jochem Uytenhaage. And then there is the ultimately fanatic sweetface sprinter Erben Wennemars. I've been missing this kinda stuff for too long, so with the recent, slightly worrying, rise of my bloodpressure, what else can I do!!!
erben faceanother Jan Bos by Ewoud Broeksma


22-01-2006 more sordid stuff
Already had a few audiolinks added to the previous entry, but the soundclips coming from the original site all being of the horrible 52k variety, I thought I'd redo 'm with the help of the original dvd kindly provided by our dvdj Fred. Only
dear Joan Collins has nothing to do with this bitnow becoming painfully aware that it is one piece of truly BAD editing! I did correct a bit here and there, but some things are beyond repair, especially where soapy Kirk Geiger talks right through the themedong by Olivia Newton John. Anyway, judge for yourself. And if you've gotten over it, here's another audiolink to 2 hours of the greatest camp gossip avaiable these days: the weekly show from the East Village, NYC, by partygost Daniel Nardicio. (I wanted to write host; this indeed was a typo, as was the earlier one, but so good I'd decided to keep 'm; almost as good as the continueing item on the show about the police campaign to promote pantsfree cellphone use) We've been missing this kinda stuff for too long!!!

17-01-2006 sordid
it's incredible, how the programmer of our gay movienight managed to play the movie that really did deserve all the oscars and globes, but did not get them because it seems too painfull for americans to really look at themselves. This movie does show a main character in the nude so it qualifies for a placement in my list, but it also qualifies for the number 1 spot, because it is as good as, or even better then, one flew over the cuckoos nest, or should we compare it to "Come back to the 5 and dime JimmyDean". One must be European to see this, I guess, to only see the beauty and not be distracted and irritated by painfull depictions of middle americana. This film indeed is the ultimate complaint at all remaining Hollywood hypocracy, and then some, all the time not taking itself too seriuous, as any good drama queen should. Do see Sordid lives, sing along with Tammy Wynette, and don't take my writing too serious either; enjoy!

17-01-2006 on golden globes
Last night the US movie establishment chose themselves the product they're most proud of and, golly, they had a gay movie winning!

Of course I cannot include this one in my movielist, although Ang Lee can be trusted to move both gay and straight audiences to tears with it, as it does not even meet criterium nr 1 as set in the entry of 11-1. I'm never a great fan of the product the industry puts out to satisfy their need to do the right thing. Up untill Philadelphia they thought they did enough by giving it 7 oscars and wearing red ribbons. Fact remains there are no gay actors in all these movies. We may count ourselves lucky that this one has an out director! So let's stay with that very tiny group of major screen actors that are out. Sadly, they still are the true heroes, only for that fact! So, maybe the most amazing stride in liberating Hollywood this year is out actor Chad Allen playing the role of a christian minister. Luckily the far more groundbreaking story of Paradise now, showing us the last day of two terrorist friends before they blow themselves up, did bring the foreign movie globe to the Palestinian/Dutch/Israeli production team. Last year's Dutch product Simon did not even get past the nomination hurdle, because dealing with gay friends AND euthanasia was just to much to digest for the surgically resized American stomach.
Final remark: Images here by the all time prime depictor of Queer Texas: Rick Chris.

12-01-2006 more on movies
Not often a movie has a scene where it makes uninhibited promotion for another movie. Not often a movie has at least 4 lines I want to write down to quote on these pages either. Last week's movie did just that for this weeks, which was a much more intellectual, possibly pretentious, thing about social classes in gay culture. Michael Parducci, straight stupid: hot!It had a main Italian character that may not be everybody's body type, but it sure is mine: ultimately shaggy, sweaty, fatty, hot and sweet, but straight and raised too macho as well, his counterpart is a Jewish character who thought himself utterly unattractive, think Woody Allan, and the lowest in the gay caste system until he found a lover who got off on hebrew culture. We all know how caste-infected our culture is: If we even would try to practice it in public in India we would be thrown in jail, but us queers, we thrive on it: if you're not into Citroen cars, then you're not worthy of the space you're occupying at our local bar; if you have not got a washboard and biceps of over 45 cm circumferance you're thin air. If your dick does not curve upward, DO NOT PRESUME I'd èver grease up my hole for YOU, DARLIN! Funny thing was that even after the movie finished the bar was still full of guys who obviously couldn't care less that the movie was about their lifestyle: they kept on touching up their precious flat-abs boyfriend and talking about cars and ski holidays.

11-01-2006 best movies
I'm dropping one of my old resolutions for a new one in 2006. the one to drop is this: I'm never going to say anything positive about threesome half - gay movies with two guys and a girl.Scott Lunsford The new one: I'm only going to include movies in my queer filmlist if the main characters show their dicks. meaning: ladies and gen tallmen: we have the first 2006 entry for my filmlist, in at 4 !!
Also have to include one more weblog in my links: being the one by the director of said movie. Here is a quote:
My favorite thing about new year’s is the “best of” lists from the year before. I eat ‘em up. The top news stories, albums, songs, movies, best selling gifts, celebrity break-ups, natural disasters, wacko inventions, worst dressed, and “oh no they didn’ts.” The lists go on and on. Think of a topic, however random or macabre, some anal rentitive fanatic's made a list. I’ll be posting my own anally pored-over favorites over the next few days. This will be my, ugh, seventeenth year of keeping such lists. I recommend everyone do it. It’s great for looking back and remembering eras of your life. 1989, the year I started doing this, “Love Shack” by the B-52’s was my number 1 song, Madonna’s Like a Prayer my favorite album, and the best movie, Heathers. I guess I haven’t changed much in 17 years. Anyway, I was shocked to find the list above on TLAvideo’s website. The 10 best selling gay DVDs of 2005. My own movie, Eating Out, is, um, number one. Holy shit!
Now on to why it's in the list: the nudity is there not because it is functional, but just because it is nice to see and the director obviously asked: why not? and the two players just looked sheepishly at each other as they do throughout this movie, just giggled, had no serious answer, and said to each other: "I'll do it if you do it too", upon which the director said: that's a deal then! (go to the queer movie top 50 page to see stills) Secondly, the girl is there not because someone high up in sales at the movie company had said "we have to please thAT Jim or thIS JimthIS Jim or thAT Jimthe straight audience too", but because she is the ultimate camp creation, there only to please other queens! Turdly: We had a Jim winning the first final of the Dutch Idols. He performed at our local gay community center last year. Did he do something special to please the 95% queer audience? NO! (he only pleased te other 5% being hysterical 13 year old girls) So having another Idols-winning Jim, who does not think twice about pleasing his queer fans by taking part in a sexy homo movie is the way to go and shows not all of the new generation gays are depressing horrid prude-nerds, like all of our gay youth group outsite would like us to believe. They'd better listen to this!
And for you US readers, who'd like to know how our Jim sounds, hear this (is it!)

10-01-2006 others
I've been lookin at some of the weblogs that deal with homo eroticism. It's always good to know what one is up against and evaluate if there still is any use in me continueing my efforts here. For the moment my conclusion is: yes. The amount of great writing combined with strong content is still minimal. The few links I've added are quite interesting though.
If all these guys spend so much time writing, has anybody got time left for reading?

02-01-2006 back 2 work:
For a theater project, in preparation by one of my most favorite employers for next year, I'm looking for at least a dozen guys wo are perverted and exhibitionist enough, to take part in the ultimate queer dream, more or less the penultimate gaypimp eat-your-heart-out appearance.
The idea is that the whole group should make a roaring entrance on stage on motorbikes, naked.

Thusfar I've contacted the two most known gay motorbikers clubs, MSR and MSA, but the reaction has been icy, if not nill. (have Pinkspirit to try) in the BEST POSSIBLE tasteSo I've started to look around amongst friends. Their reaction is at least a bit more positive. Here's a quote from Vincent, you've seen pop up on these pages before:
"Sure, I'd love to take part: I happen to have a naked body, only, I'm totally unqualified to ride motorbikes. I will pass on your offer to my friend Dave, who rode for over 25 years and only stopped in '95 after a bad accident ( he also shows serious scars of that, hope that's no problem(!). "

As we do not need you to drive on the open road, we can use guys who have no drivers licence as I already did find a few guys who volunteered to let us use their vehicles, but not their bodies. (considered themselves too much out of shape; yep, we sure are talking queer here; Hey guys: I'm participating myself! at 55, only a shadow of the drop-dead-gorgeous hunk I once was ;) I can assure you it will all be done in the best possible taste ! Really guys, not much skill is needed; you're only required to ride a few meters inside the theater, but pose for quite a while.

I'm glad this project re-affirmed my warm sentiments for the MSR, rotterdam's branch of the ECMC. I'd let my membership slip away a decade ago, when I was working mostly in Germany and could hardly ever attend. Being a registered ECMC member again will get me free acces to all sleazeparties of Europe. I do like that idea! So see you around SLM Copenhagen, MS Lyon, München, Berlin

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