pathetic,
as if the ancient Greeks were prudish republican christian Americans:
THERE WERE NO JOCKSTRAPS BACK THEN !
and everybody just enjoyed frontal nudity for what it was: Beautiful!
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historic,
Had 1st talks thursday with the new director of IHLIA Homodoc in the impressive new city librairy building of Amsterdam, and agreed on further talks in januari to see where we can join forces in safeguarding our visual homo art heritage long term and be ready if and when the time is right for a homo museum with an outline and a base collection. While there I had a look at the amazingly designed exhibition on Dolly Bellefleur, who at the start of her carreer also performed at one of my Swimmmingpool parties at Sportfondsenbad Delft. Will get back to Ihlia and homo museum soon on the editorial pages of db/queerartcomment?
27-11-2009
hyper sentimental This weekend the Amsterdam Cohort Studies of GGD, AMC and the HIV monitoring foundation celebrates its 25th birthday. I participated from the start, changing over from the Hepatitus B trial-project that finished at that time, donating bloodsamples and filling in the questionairs about my sexual behavior at the GGD in Amsterdam , urged to keep attending by Nel, the legendary GGD nurse. I continued till this day and hope we all did some good.
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26-11-2009
hyper romantic 2
just saw the repeat on BBC4 of dame Shirley's electric proms concert of one month ago and was swept op my feet by all of it but was really shaken by two songs:
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the bbc has been known to get stuff off of youtube before you know it's there, so do save! It's sooo silly, sad, pathetic: we as neighbour country are very much, UK oriented, Anglophiles even, but are excluded from their I player, or forced to use IP adress scams to get too their content.comment?
25-11-2009
hyper romantic 1
just got drawn into the reruns of the original British Queer as Folk on our out-tv. And was once again swept off my feet by this song:
the keyboardplayer who gets full attention here, truly is one of the most beautiful, but if you prefer there are also many clips focussing on Brettcomment?
24-11-2009
Don't ask don't tell So? Obama has done enough for his 1st period by signing the hate crimes bill and banning the HIV+ tourist ban, that was only losing the USA 100ds of millions of tourists Euros they could no longer afford to ignore?comment?
23-11-2009
Join the campaign
help elect someone tonight, who I think as no other has shown (s)he knows a thing or 2 about promoting queer culture, as night mayor of Amsterdam
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22-11-2009
it's sunday, Oh GOD , here we go again: let's worship
read this or this
the people in the USA who are seriously creating this kind of legislation, are so sex obsessed, and so freaked out and frightened by the beauty of sex, they themselves have become the biggest threat to society. It's them that we should lock up, and throw away the key!
Back in the seventies, we homos marched side by side with Martijn, the org that asked questions about the age of consent and tried to support guys who were attracted to young and helped them remain within the law. Since then the homo orgs have fallen over each other in frantic attempts to be as normal as possible. They felt it was great strategy to set apart a group that was even worse off in acceptance, to cowardly distance themselves and leave the old solidarity strategy behind in the years of the "self" and to "each his own".
Of course they were helped by politics and a police force that blackmailed them to axe participation of Martijn at pride events in exchange for a tasty sponsor contract and an equal opportunities at the police offensive.
Now some politicians think they can go even further to attract the christian and muslim fanatic vote. BAH!
It's high time to say: until here and no further! reverse the trend of normality I was at the exhib of Ton of Holland at galerie ramakers today. Will get back to it in detail on the db-pages. His book, presented there last week is also for sale at Vrolijk. He didn't like my neoclassic wallpaper on this page, so I changed it straight away for one of his, to remain here until my new layout on jan 1st, but, to keep some kind of balance I turned it negative, which doesn't help much because the overall view with the color orgy in the center is more out of balance now then ever before, but then, who needs balance at an orgy?
these wallpapers he made with Dennis Koot still are for sale: for details comment?
21-11-2009
clips clearance :
new makeover:
song I obviously missed in my dancelist:
or for those who missed THE era alltogether:
bad luck; it will only get that good again if you guys want to make it happen!
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20-10-2009 notice
change in format :
this weblog has existed in this form for over 10 years. Started as format pioneer, it more and more got to suffer from the law of "remmende voorsprong" (inhibitory lead) : implementation of mass renewals like, easy comment options, rss feeds, archiving, all started to lag behind. The ease of the personalised format and my old skills with manual html writing plus the freedom of my own templates without moral judgement that come with most other formats have kept me going this long. But now it's time to move on, to enable cross platform communications in the future. I guess I will stay on my private server, but to make space for the wordpress approach, I will have to remove the archives on the day I start anew, jan 1st 2010. They may resurface online if and when I find time, but I suggest, if you're interested to save the history pages or start reading backward a.s.a.p.
It has been quite a moving decade . . .
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19-10-2009 extended
as many already find me oversexed, I'm sure you won't mind this :
Just wonder, does it fall in the catagory homosexual?
Also have, instead of coming back to it here, refined the writing on the +&P T-dance issue on the 13th below.
Am afraid, as with any turnaround in generations, the next generation will dismiss the puritan tide of people 'leading' our community these days, as the religion-tolerant inquisition and held responsible for the destruction of the assets and liberties we gained with the pioneer queer generation between 1950 and 1980.
I'd rather declare gay marriage illegal again. It's only a solution for the homos who desperately try to be 'normal'. I do not need a religious heterosexual institution; just equal rights is fine with me and ways to safeguard our heritage outside relationships
(if you make an appointment with a solicitor you'll find there are already loads of options), but then, if some desperately want to be part of a religious tradition that does not accept us, I'm not stopping anybody.
Why do some of us feel we have to get our inspiration from christian morality instruments as 'penitence' we last saw in the middle ages, when it was thought of as ways to combat the plague? Self chastising, in the form of self castration: denying our sexuality to eradicate the guilt for having caused or at least aggravated the aids crisis?
Those are routes to 'enlightening' as they may be preached by our former Den Bosch diocese plebeian, now would-be press officer of the Vatican, Antoine Bodar, or by the self proclaimed 'homo pope' from Best, Henk Krol, but certainly not by two other Catholic gay heroes (or were they prophets?) of mine, now sadly passed away, Gerard Reve and the most pious of us all, author of 'mystic body' and early aids victim Frans Kellendonk.
In this train of thought I kind of liked the act Sanjay e.o. did last sunday at 'the church', with a coffin and corpse. If it would be carried to its conclusion with a purification orgy ritual with holy body fluids like piss/blood/semen, then just maybe we could be on the way to leave the 'dark ages' behind us. Sadly we're far away from that eutopia, again possible fear of recognizable faces in the background on that clip shows it's still poz and benauwd and anything but proud!
sample the new generation of queer creatives: more see Slavacomment?
15-10-2009
sunday worship and as bonus a great flashmob viral:
just was mesmerised by the good old workers flat caps worn by Gorbatchov and Walesa at the Berlin Wall events. Those were the true daring heroes that the young jello generation lacks so dearly! Just had to get me one too. Figures: they're only for sale nowadays at C&A!
and now you're gonna say; you'd rather see guys in summer undress:comment?
14-10-09
wow:
just saw local friend Theo on Nova tv, as one of the most amazing participants of the Ted conferences, next week descending on Amsterdam.
I praise myself lucky to have an original early work of him hanging above my couch.
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13b-10-09
Enough is enough as said on 5-10 that's my theme for this month :
not only did it work, as I heard on the news today: the recession in NL is officially over, it also feels pretty good sofar and helped me take some decisions I'd put off for much too long,
like the one on + & proud, or was it + & benauwd?
I've kept quiet and constructive thus far, coz I kept thinking that my subtle remarks might eventually filter through, or maybe it's the meds that make me over sensitive for bad vibes, but talks with loads of others reveal over and over it's not just me feeling this way.
From the euforic start last year it came down bit by bit. The proud and sunny atmosphere gradually made way for the dark and depressing clouds of Schorer. With their 'professionalism' and governement grants they left us with another demonstration of lick-up/kick-down strategy: politically correct but pulling out the heart of what started with great enthousiasm. Personally I also feel I´ve been treated quite disrespectful and only get called in at the last minute when others´ well payed appearances fall through, without even a mention of appreciation for unfaultering reliable continued support thus far. Is that how you treat people who contribute for free, out of solidarity and enthousiasm?
Like Leo I am a soloist, but one with 30 years of experience with party- and event promotion in queer culture, also experienced in falling flat on my face every now and then, and learn a thing or 2 from the experience. So if he rather has highly payed professional sterilized contributors that he can order about, fine, let it be his professional do. But I doubt if it is professional to confront your volunteers with loads of hassle with just getting 'partly' cost declarations through.
Besides, I do prepare my sessions, and if I do both the VJ and DJ work, how can I have something decent ready, when I just get a notice that I'm expected to turn up 3 days in advance? I could take along the new Gaga remixes, but really . . . there's nothing remotely gaga for me right now: if anything they will probably ban Gaga becoz of 'unsafe lyrics' (see entry of nov 12 below). I honestly wonder where the heart has gone . . .
It feels like the T-dance goal is to deny its base group's identity: Are they not gay men who are very well aware how most of them got + ? Does being + mean they're a-sexual ? Why have my free teaser vids been dismissed repeatedly as too erotic? Do we only want to see onanism with flying 3-d logo's? Does dancing not have all to do with temtpation, luring the possible partner in getting closer, getting intimate, Isn't making a danceparty a-sexual something like trowing out the baby with the bathwater? Does poz and pround not already have plenty of talks, information exchange events? Can we not really search for the essence of physical attraction? Can seropoz guys do without? Should they? Do we like the churches want us deny and shrink our sexuality, or can we still like the pioneers Tom of Finland or Amsterdam's homo Rembrand Willem Kok, enlarge our cocks to the huge and ass destructing dimensions we most want them to have? Do we not, especially in the "Church" need to worship our identity.
Do we have a defining identity other then the sexual one? Does the T dance have a clue about the target group? Is it not a mission to look for safer practices by our patrons, instead of the ridiculous plan to force horeca staff into educational duties? Will we ever still attract the under 30 dancetwinks that way, the guys who really are most at risk to seroconvert? Do they really have to continue ramming obsolete safesex strategy or abstinence down our throat till we're old and buried ? Could we not give some initiative back to the visitors instead of having the organisers patronising?
No, I'm not saying: 'turn it into an all out orgy', but why hysterically try to keep it a-sexual and lock up all the nice cozy secluded spaces, when you organise it in a sex club? Why is it that around 6 o'clock, only halfway through the event when the place should be heating up, when I'm done and move my ass to the Cuckoo's Nest I find loads of guys had the same idea and moved over to cruise the cellars?
I think we could have done so much more with that perfect name, taking the mickey out of religious fanaticism and authorities. I think it now really is time to say amen and out! And to show I am not the shoulder shrugging walking away type, I might just go this sunday, if only to get my ass fucked verbally.
my kind of dance event: sadly, not the + and proud T-dance
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13-10-2009
Otto :
finally saw the previous Bruce laBruce movie Otto, and had to raise it quite a bit in my movie top 50 also met Ken, the sweet scoutboy who runs Pink Art in Bruxelles. Quite an intense, tasty and rewarding getting acquainted session.
if you are around Hoogstraat 207 in Brussels, do not miss it; it's open 7 days a week from 10 till 18h (1st floor)!
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12-11-2009
she did it again, enter the bathhouse:
I want your ugly, I want your desease
I want your everything as long as it's free
I want your love, love,love, love
I want your horror, I want your design
coz your a criminal as long as you're mine
rammen ramme, ramma ?
also great lyrics on dance in the dark (Marilyn, Judy, silvia, Bennet Ramsey haunt like Liberace, You will never fall apart Diana, you're still in our hearts?)
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11-10-2009
regional darkroom update : the Boss re-opens on wednesdag 23rd of december, so I just heard.
meanwhile I can recommend parties in the good old wasdag style, at de Venise Breda every second monday of the month (great action), see here.comment?
10-10-2009
Pfhew! pretty emotional :
As I said 2 days below, that WALL history, it was pretty much also my history. So quite a few moments with tears of emotion watching the coverage from Berlin, as much of my sexual highligts of the past 20 years played out in the former east. Prenzlauer Berg, Berghain, WOW! so much more emotion then the old West Berlin gay center around the Motzstraße.
Also good to see all those world leaders together with a gay mayor and a gay German minister of foreign affairs and his husband. Twenty years ago we celebrated the end of communist ideology, but I think these days we are witnessing a similar turnover, this time of the old norms and values of capitalism. Twenty years ago the Americans may have thought they'd won the cold war; they never expected to lose in the end from the Chinese! They just as much aleniated themselves from the people as communist leaders did in the years from 45 to 89 and the fall of the wall, not only economic, but just as much in morals and values!
This is not meant to be anti American, because just like the East Germans and the Poles and Gorbatchov (the true architect of the wall collapse, guest of honor here to bring the good old workers cap back into fasion, as Emmett did in queer as folk) the USA are forced to drop their old system themselves too. The US bankers had to because their managers and ceo's no longer understood what they were selling. They also twice elected a president who had no clue, just because he represented their old family values, that they thought were the fundamentals of their society. How misguided and blind can one be?
If the Americans even under Obama keep preaching that stealing from the poor tto fatten the asses of the already super-rich is the essence of the American dream, we're nowhere near the bittom of this yet. On the other hand, just to say something nice and compassionate about the Americans, where a majority still thinks they can keep their system propped up by praying, I´ve visited US friends much more often than the closer friends in Berlin over the past few years, even if it was illegally (I lied through my teeth about my sero status, thank god, that's no longer needed next time).
Americans may be ahead of our new EU countries (maybe even the old ones) with accepting ethnic minorities in their society,
they are very much behind accepting sexual minorities. One of the domino stones at the Brandenburger Tor said it all, the good old peace sign und Freiheit, Liebe und ein bißchen glücklich sein. Now let the Israelis follow suit!
To make the above an even more powerful 21st century new politics event: Obama can learn more from veteran Gorbachov: get the fuck out of Afghanistan; the old American show of force will never work, just as the Russians failed there. Every country gets the leaders they deserve, we may not like it, but if the Afghans choose terrorizing children/women/homo murderers, so be it. That's the only way Karzai a.o. will get off his ass and be forced to do something about corruption.
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09-11-2009
more history, masculinity in the lowlands
was at the annual conference of the Royal Dutch Historic Society last week
The poster showing the pants of our king William 1st (1772-1843) is all but manly: in my humble opinion it looks more like a shaved vagina!
The most entertaining discours was held by Henk de Smaele (university of Antwerp) which was about the appeal to Belgians of Marlon Brando and James Dean in the fifties.
most others were quite unintelligible, scientifically theoretic and dull, quite unlike the Jesuit history teachers I remember from my school years.comment?
08-11-2009
Berlin wall
All day today and tomorrow memorial day, obviously.
I've worked in the old East Berlin around 1984. Can remember things like "I'd like to have Lee color 204 here" and getting the answer "For the fancy colors we have to ask permission; we have red, green, orange, yellow and blue here" Also have amazing memories of working at the Bar Jeder Vernunft Spiegelzelt. The incredible party memories of the old and new Lab-oratory, nude sunbathing and beaches everywhere, swimming im Weissensee und Wansee, SansSoucy, Tiergarten-Kloh, etc.
Lab-yrinth at Lab-oratory, the only legendary perv filth venue remaining in the world: saw Velvet Goldmine on that stage for the 1st time; shattering experience!
here's the same song as above by superb Roxy Music.
but as its cold, lets stay around the German theme of my own bed today:
above was the rendered version, but now it's like: and here's the one of Ludwig in Neuschwanstein
maybe you can handle the old 1972 Ludwig movie by Hans Juergen Syberberg, do see!
more Falco eroticised classix in highres @ the db/queerart masterclass.
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more resurfacing infantility, It's just irrisistable . . .
the ultimate queer children's song (without being in the 'suspect' catagory)
sadly in Maine the go-and-procreate-untill-the-eath-melts people have won again, thanks to campaign funding by R.C. and other fundamentalist churches.
Why can't Americans separate church and state like most of western Europe does?comment?
05-11-2009
That's it! I've had enough:
for months the economists have been saying the recession is over, while the bad news, bankruptcies, layoffs, unemployment numbers continue or get worse, it only seems to be over for Goldman Sacks employees, who are allowed to persevere in their Scrooge bonus behavior. If they don't help us turn things around before this christmas, they will be sitting on their pots of gold all alone and nobody will ever want to have anything to do to their blubbery asses!
anywayz,
If we go back to that fateful day, june 22st 1969 when we lost Judy, and Stonewall got off the wall we can find inspiration in how we felt then, to only agree with the mothers of mashups "we've had enough" and :
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04-11-2009
giving into my dementia or resurfacing infantility, sorry US & UK visitors, translating this would not serve any purpose unless I was as good a poet as Annie or Oscar Wilde
besides, just combining a children's song (from my own youth) and homo erotic fantasies, makes me highly suspicious in my own country and more of a potential child molester than "Santa Claus",
still, somebody has to defend common sence, as opposed to "gesundes Volksempfinden". So again, as too many remain on the 'politically correct' path, here's:
Dikkertje Dap, Het mooiste versje van Annie M.G. Schmidt
Dikkertje Dap klom op de trap 's morgens vroeg om kwart over zeven om de giraf een klontje te geven. Dag Giraf, zei Dikkertje Dap, weet je, wat ik heb gekregen? Rode laarsjes voor de regen! 't Is toch niet waar, zei de giraf, Dikkertje, Dikkertje, ik sta paf.
O Giraf, zei Dikkertje Dap, 'k moet je nog veel meer vertellen: Ik kan al drie letters spellen: a b c, is dat niet knap? Ik kan ook al bijna rekenen! Ik kan mooie poppetjes tekenen! Lieve deugd, zei de giraf, Kerel, kerel, ik sta paf.
Zeg, Giraf, zei Dikkertje Dap, Mag ik niet eens even bij je stiekem van je nek afglijen? Zo maar eventjes voor de grap, denk je dat de grond van Artis als ik neerkom, heel erg hard is? Stap maar op, zei de giraf, stap maar op en glij maar af.
Dikkertje Dap klom van de trap met een griezelig grote stap. Op de nek van de giraf zette Dikkertje Dap zich af, roetsjj daar gleed hij met een vaart tot aan 't kwastje van de staart.
Boem! Au!!
Dag Giraf, zei Dikkertje Dap. Morgen kom ik nog 'n keer met de trap.
dom blondje, twin of the VeganStreaker in the vid below :
five years, to the day, after the assasination of Theo van Gogh and 7½ years after the murder of rim-buddy Pim
I'm not in the least inclined to deny my past and heritage. Leather culture spokesmen seem to retreat in splendid isolation, as if they are the guardians of the one true homosexual identity. Poz and proud seems to deny all sexuality and since the "groningen trial" feels it is their duty to stay in the closet and rather deny the existence of guys who just won't follow the comdom mafia.
Everybody who claims there is just one kind of homo, and it happens to be their kind, is just as intolerant as the gurus of the PvdA, PVV, CDA, CU. If I could exterminate one kind of pariah, it would surely be the politically correct variety!
Got the above clip from Martin, who used it as an argument to not agree with my 27-10 entry.
Look:
I'm not saying I'm a huge fan of Emile Ratelband (what's wrong with his thinking I've already discussed in the 27-10 entry, besides that he made another untrustworthy 180° turn today and made his peace with the COC), but I do agree with him that it would be such an improvement for the fighting spirit of our community, when all those faggots, filled with self hatred, and too scared to accept themselves or other homoos as the perverts they are, would be pulled in by the idiots trying to convert them into ex-gay-christians.
I only say good riddance! We've got more than enough cowards in our community trying to cover up our erect cocks, argueing that all this sexuality pushes youngsters away from the homo community. It's those scaremongers, who push my friends and allies away from my community!
You can't scare homos away of being homo; just like you can't scare blacks into being white. Michael Jackson tried, to no avail. But we can shove all those weaklings off to the opposition: GOOD RIDDANCE!
FOR FUCK'S SAKE: OUR SEXUALITY IS OUR IDENTITY !
DWH, COC's or +&proud rather see us as addicts of alcohol instead of ass. Look guys: you're not finished with just one coming out; it's an every day process, not finished untill the day you die.
Some days we are squeeky clean and white collared, but on others we are piggy smell fetishists; one day we dance with the family, the other we fuck bare or dive in oil, piss or shitpits.
and everyone who speaks Dutch, please watch uitzending gemist, of tonights Humanist TV memorial program in which he accuses 2002 politics of ignoring Pim and allowing him to be murdered and predicts that in a few years they will be earwashed by somebody who is far worse than Pim or Ayaan. How spot-on his vision proved to be . . .
Now we're faced with what to choose at the next elections. Surely not the old-farts party funded by Mr. Nagel, the guy who betrayed Pim, even though they are the only party I would choose if employment for the 45 to 67 generation was my main issue, but then, such betrayal shows everybody with Labour in their history cannot be trusted! So no original Dutch Labour too. Their narrow minded support of minorities made them drop all criticism of fanatic religions, christianity included, wich caused most problems our cities face today. Not D'66 either, possibly the most gay tolerant party, but also pussyfooting in the middle, ignoring request to guard freedom of speech and creative art from within the homo community. Also the party of the 'so called' tolerance for cannabis, who's minister of health placed poppers on the heavy drugs list.
Their argument: compliance with Europe: Lie! Belgium, Germany and the UK, our neighbours did not do that! Also not our original liberal party VVD, who side with greed, stealing, bankers.
Two parties left: SP and PVV. My choice may very well be Wilders, just to give the hypocrits in all parties mentioned in the paragraph above a fistpunch up the ass. Four years later, if the PVV proves to abuse their power, like setting up concentration camps with ovens to burn muslims, I can always move back to the more rational SP. I'd rather blow up PvdA politicians then muslims, primairily because the latter are much better fuckers, even with condoms, as I can re-confirm after last week's visit to gayplay.
so the dumb blond is me?
or is it: 'where there's hair, there's no brain' (or does shaving not count).
Some more months to consider, befor the local NL elections and then another year for the national ones.
Both above parties advocate keeping pensions at 65. I would surely not mind working till 67, but what I want much more is work for those who can and want it between 50 and 65.
So if politics doesn't look at their own representatives and officials and gives no incentives to employers AT ALL to improve the current situation, where only 20% of the population between 50 and 65 is working.
Any party going that way? I would hitch a ride.comment?
02-11-2009
allerzielen, remembering the dead, sweet / sour nostalgia :
Got this record back in the eighties as a thank-you-present for DJ-ing at the goodbye to life party of
the late Hans Paul Verhoef, one of the early aids victims, activists, street fighter and DWH chairman who DID have a vision.
It still has his hand written thanx message, urging me to "keep the spirit"
Since then it became a nr. dance hit by Housemartins member Norman Cook a.k.a. Fat boy slim (now back at nr.1 on most dancelists with Fedde LeGrand's PraizeYou2009)
is this version going to do it all over again?
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Queer culture without cock and balls ?
That's called CASTRATION !
why do that to yourselves?
weathermannetje
adje lacht
adje huilt
Ships that pass in the night
and speak each other in passing Only a signal shown;
a distant voice in the darkness
So on the ocean of life we pass
Only a look and a voice;
a touch extacy
then darkness again and a silence.
after:
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
Tales of a Wayside Inn
politically correct
is the most dangerous infection,
first symptoms:
blocking creativity,
spontaneity,
vigilance, economic renewal
and is spreading like wildfire
in the gaiiy community and
it's more contageous then any STD!
We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.
Oscar Wilde
They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.
Andy Warhol
There is just nothing
I do better
like better
fun
laughter
tears
small bio
(*Pragmatist * lazy * Internet Junkie * Softie @ Heart * Opinionated * Promiscuous * First-Born * Coffee & Jenever Addict * Don't Like Slow Drivers * Positive Attitude and HIV status )
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old guestbook, fell into a state of worthlesness, due to too christian profanity filter how can we discuss sex without using any verb? old entries remain here
" People who have a nice,
healthy connection to their crotch
have a better connection
between the head and their heart,
and in a land
of sexually healthy people
we’d have less crime, less poverty,
less divorce, less drug use
and fewer right-wing Republicans.”
Larry Flynt
Je zou denken, daar weten ze wat tolerantie is, but:
mietjes Delft is
UNIEK: de enige homo club in Nederland waar niet alle homos welkom zijn: de homogristenunie
A'dam though has :
Den Haag:
Rotterdam: